nameless faceless you

nascent, silent, you
flood my universe
sans presence, sans words, sans love

this heavy quiet
paralyses yet
shimmers, a distant mirage

turns mute, ominous
calm before the storm
sweeping me out of your reach

roiling unease drowns
my gut, as my soul
assumes foetal position

could it be crossed wires
cipher missing key
scrambled code I read it wrong

oblivious
to fractured desires
the cosmic tango spins you

out of my orbit
tormented intense
your early warning radar

pings and beeps you safe
past conflagration
I watch you go, sucked away

I do not fight to keep you
as your life establishes boundaries

sets limits
beyond which I would not step
hallowed space excluding me

pause dream consider take stock weigh options
analyse refute accept

pushpullebbflowebb
whatever it was
magical spark extinguished

this week fills me with dread
rock-heavy and dark
foreboding? omen? who knows

seven days will tell
my wart starts to twitch
soonsoon i know i will know